reincarnation

something I always subscribe to- a hella lot easier in SL *grinz* I see by the traffic tailing off to this blog that people have lost interest- and that allowed me to do the inevitable- yes, I am back in SL- occasionally. Who am I now? NU-UH! Not because I want to deceive or indulge in any of the amateur dramatics- but because I am NOT recreating the shitfest that Callie lived in. My new character looks different- goes different places- does different things. Of course- its not hard to work out- its still me at the pc- but the chances of bumping into me are strongly diminished as I avoid all the old haunts, activities and people. With one exception- I still DJ- I still get a buzz from it- so, I still do it. So, SL has gone back to being fun- I RP a lot now- something Callie rarely did. The whole focus of the place has shifted for me- its pretty cool right now- I am having fun- made some great new friends. Those of you who were kind to me- please dont feel aggrieved- but if I contact you all- then I am simply recreating Callie- and I really cant do that- it was way too painful. If I ever see you inworld- I will say hi- so if some random av starts chatting- say hi back- it might just be me *smiles*
RL- well, it continues its erratic path- back on late shifts this week, I much prefer them. I had the ickiest experience this week...a bad reaction to a mosquito bite- I seem to suffer since I became diabetic. Anyhoo- I had what I thought was a HUGE blister form- it was bout the size of a quails egg. After a couple days, I was still using antihistamine cream to stop the itching- and this "blister" fell off- it was solid- like a jelly pad. I FREAKED! underneath was a raw patch which now seems to be healing ok- but OMG- I never saw anything like that before. I guess I need to be more careful- I have taken to spraying insect repellant daily at home. Hmmmmm- does that last bit qualify as tmi? I think so *smiles proudly*

Dawning

OK- this is likely to be a particularly rambling post- so- pay attention *grinz* I was jus wondering whether it makes sense to keep posting as Callie- as she is no longer a part of me? Trouble is- its a pain in the ass to start over- even with a blog- so- i will probly continue, just tweak the profile some. Has Callie been back to SL? Of course- a couple of times- to tidy up stuff and once to talk to...well- no matter- a closed door. Will she return? Highly unlikely- it was a sad and lonely place for her at times- a lot of good ones- but sheesh- the lows were fkn horrendous. Will I start over- maybe- lets face it- its an addiction- and I do miss it at times. One thing is for sure- I would hang in different places with different people, doing different stuff- why recreate shit?
Sooo- what have I been up to? Basically working!!! Right now I am on a long weekend- so, of course the fantastic weather we have had here headed for the hills- its grey and rainy- but thats ok- getting stuff done round the flat- being domestic. I have to say- nothing hugely exciting happening- I just felt like a waffle.
I considered going to a different world- but that held no appeal either- the very things that make SL such a painful place are the ones I enjoy- the freedom, the unstructured nature of it. SL was always my social life- first of all because I had no confidence or money to pursue one RL, and latterly because my free time isnt conducive to a RL social life- so its been pretty weird- watching some more tv- BAD- catching up on some movies- not so bad.
You see the way my mind is going? Yeah- me too *sighs* addiction is hard work, yanno. Anyhoo- I guess its probable that a new avi will turn up in SL in the future- but dont bother informing the drama police- they wont be associated with Callie- or what would be the point?
I know a lot of people read this- well- would be kinna pointless blogging if nobody did, huh? So- I wanted to say thanks to the couple of people who took time to send me messages lately- Unome and Aldo. IM to Callie do find their way into my e mails *smiles*
Now- I have the most exciting day planned- gonna cruise the aisles of the supermarket- then I have a pamper afternoon planned- its all about MEEEEEE!!!!

gone away

I finally got to the end of the line. My SL is in pieces once again- and I dont have the energy to put it back together. I guess that I wanted too much- I spent too much time alone there- too much time worrying- too much time being deceived- I can do all of that RL. I doubt I will be back- even the dumbest animal learns eventually. It took me almost three years and a small lake of tears- its time to walk away. I will still blog from time to time.

move on.......

lmao- I can imagine the scramblin THAT title is gonna cause- fooled ya all!!!! It refers to my pleas to my passengers on Sunday night. I was working the last train down from London- and a HEAP of people who had been to the Springsteen concert in Hyde Park were trying to get on- we didnt quite have to resort to pushing them into the carriages- but it was close- I have never seen a more crowded train. I was safely in the rear cab, but omg- I felt so sorry for em. We are havin a fantastic spell of hot weather here- around 90 degrees- its sooo nice! I love it hot- and I dont mind wet either- umm- humid- umm- well, wet works too..... *grinz* As you can tell, I am in good humour currently- today is a day off and I been to the hairdresser- guaranteed to cheer me up- I duz like ma pampering.
SL? well- big changes there too- I have found a purpose- a project is underway. I am turning my attic into a party room- its lookin kinna cool and I am lookin forward to having a few laughs there. The idea is to recreate some of the fun times- fuck the drama an the high school shenanigans- jus fun an laughter.
I am hangin with some different ppl these days- and lookin up some old friends too- the rebirth of my SL is well underway. When I chose the phoenix as my emblem- I had no idea how accurate it would be- risen from the ashes a few times now- and- here we go again.........